Happy Day!

Not! Today is my 7th Wedding Anniversary! Hip Hip Hooray ! :) Ok, gag me with a spoon! I have been dreading this day for weeks! I just don't know what to do or think or say today. My day started off wonderful at midnight last night when I was talking to POS because he decided at 11pm to let me know he would be coming to get the boys today. Then of course he had to be mean and rude and get me all kinds of upset so I was crying. Then this morning I texted him to let him know he could not come see the boys because I just didn't want to face him today plus the boys are doing great and I don't want them upset again. Well, at first he was ok then about 20 minutes later he called yelling and screaming at me calling me a Bitch and then hanging up on me. I am sure he called his mommy and she got him all mad at me and that is when he called me. He cannot think by himself I have always had to do it and now his mom and his girlfriend are doing the thinking for him! Anyway, I am doing better than I thought. No crying and I didn't even get upset by the name calling. I am just coming to the realization that I am over him and need to move on. I am mourning the relationship and stability but not him. I cannot wait till I am legally free of him and can start all over! Hopefully that will be soon! Thanks for reading!

good thoughts

Please send good thoughts my way as I am heading to the apt. tomorrow to start packing up my life! I will be there for about 4-5 days depending on how long it takes to pack it up! POS will be there during the day but is staying somewhere else at night. He is being totally uncooperative so I am sure I will be stressed to the max once I return from there. At least the boys and I will get to see our friends we are missing so much. Pray for us on our return trip it will be me the boys and a uhaul!

!!!!!

So, I found out yesterday that our Insurance ended the day POS was termintated! So, isn't that just wonderful! I asked him what he planned on doing and he said "I don't know, what do you want me to do?" I said I don't care if you have to get a job at McDonald's- we need insurance! He said "I am NOT doing that!" So, now I am not sure what we are going to do. I am trying to find a job with benefits but that takes time and there will be a waiting period! I don't even want to know what is going to happen next!!!

Will the s*** ever end?

Guess who was FIRED on Friday? You guessed correctly- POS! Isn't that just great! He gave me some sob story about why he was fired but it's totally not true! He was fired for having a relationship with a co-worker. How could he be so stupid? Now we have insurance for only 30 days, he has lost his upcoming bonus and lost his stock options because he would not be vested until October. So he lost about $40,000! Now, I definitely won't be getting anything from him for a while! I just do not understand what the hell has happened to him. How can you change that much in such a short period of time. I honestly think he needs HELP! I am not letting him see the boys without me for a while until I feel he is stable again. If things don't change I am also going to seek Full Custody. I just can't risk anything happening to my boys! Keep us in your prayers, we definitely need them!

more S***!

Well, my great and wonderful husband is out of town supposedly for training for work. I am assuming he left home Monday but don't know. He won't tell me anything. What kind of crap is that? First of all we are still legally married, not separated or anything. Secondly, I am glad he is worried that we might need to get in touch with him. Ethan was sick Friday till Tuesday and he never once asked how he was feeling or called to check on him. I don't know when he is going back home or anything, the boys even ask when he is coming to see them and he says he's not sure yet. I am about to tell him to go u know what to himself! I could deal with this situation much better if he would be a mature adult about the whole thing but he is not. I can't stand secrets and lies and really don't have time for it! Now, we are just going about our life as if he doesn't exist! What else can we do?

No call

So POS did not call his children from 5:15 on Friday until 3:15 today! How can you go that long without speaking to your children or even call and check on them. He could text or email but no that would take too much time! I am just at a loss for words. Why does he continue to do this to his kids? I guess its like the Owl says on the Tootsie Roll Pop Commercials "The World May Never Know!"

AAAAHHHHH!!!!

So, I just have to vent! POS, is only giving me $200 this week- to support us for 2 weeks. I normally have been getting $500. Anyway, I signed Jonas up for preschool and that money and then some is already gone. I asked why it was less for this time and he said because he couldn't be without money! Then I find out he is going out of town for the 4th. He is going to visit his mom in Louisiana. He also rented a car to go visit her- must be nice to 1) get to go on a vacation 2)have enough money to go out of town 3) Have enough money to rent a car and 4) not be worried that he won't see his kids this week! I am glad that he is living up his bachelor life with no worries and lots of money to blow! Makes me feel great! Here is a quote I found online and just thought it was appropriate:

"I'm not a bitch, I just have a low bullshit tolerance!"