Lately

Things have been ok lately! We haven't seen POS since June 28th but he said he is coming on Tuesday. I have told him that until our divorce is finalized he cannot see the boys by himself. I don't feel I am being unreasonable because he is lying to me about everything and he seems to be so angry every time I speak to him on the phone. He still has no job and I am not even sure he is applying for jobs. He thinks by putting his resume out there someone will come along and snatch him up! If only that would happen and soon. Sitting here writing this I can't even think of what to write. I am trying to block so much out lately that when I want to think about it and jot it down, it won't come to me. Although, 3am seems to be when I can do nothing but think about everything.

The boys are doing well. They are loving being with my family so much and it has helped them tremendously.

I did have to stop my therapy though since we are without insurance. That has hurt! It was really helping to put everything into perspective.

I get to go to the medicaid office tomorrow and turn in some paperwork! Yahoo! I never ever thought I would ever have to do this but I am so thankful it is there and I can get help when I need it the most!